I love action movies. Those types where the stars are strong, kick ass and never die. Films like the transporter, the James Bond series and old school movies like Eraser. I totally love the Jason Bourne series and Matt Damon does an awesome job portraying Jason. Even though I am not really supposed to, I decided to take a break and watch the Bourne ultimatum. I love the part where Bourne and the Guardian reporter are at the station and Bourne just deals with all the people that are trying to kill the crazy reporter. It is not like the action is very awesome in that part, what trips me is the way the reporter and Bourne confuse the security agents as the reporter follows Bourne’s instructions. What gets me every time is that in spite of everything, the reporter still gets killed. Jason tells the guy to stay right where he is because something is not right. He knows something is not right because this is His area and he trusts what his guts are telling him.
Sadly, all his words fall on deaf ears. I could never liken anyone to God, but watching that part again just taught me something. Many times, God says like Jason said to the reporter ‘wait, hold-on, trust Me, follow My leading and instructions, just be at peace even when you think the enemy is breaking the door down. I got you.’ I find myself acting as dumbly as the reporter did sometimes when there seems to be an open path before me . The coast seems clear and I know that if I run fast enough, I will make it to my safe haven. Running, walking,anything is better than just waiting and listening to my mind play games with me. Why then does God want me to wait or as the Bible says sometimes, why does God want me to be still?
The few ( am I being truly honest here?) times I chose not to be still and decided to make decisions on what I could see, had results that were beyond bad. Some of them, I still am trying to get over to this day. The enemy like a sniper is out there just waiting for God’s kids to step out of the hedge and out of God’s cover so he can shoot them down.
But dear God, I thank You for your tender loving mercies that fail not. Even when I have stepped out of the hedge and done amazingly dumb things, Your mercy prevails. Lord, I know it is not in Your character to do so, but a girl can try, Could you please help me stay within the hedge and not break out running when fear is screaming louder than the sea waves and drowning out the gentle whisper of Your love? Help me remember that You know what You are doing and that You are infinitely cooler than Bourne, Chuck Norris and all the action stars]combined. You know everything and have all power and no one has ever been lost by You cos You are the good Shepherd and You are good just like that.
Help me to be at rest Oh Lord, trusting in You.amen